:: Gimme A Break ::
I don't really know why but I am becoming more cantankerous and irascible than ever. I couldn't quite place my finger on the exact source of this "madness" but I think it comes from several sources that made me this way: annoying people, my sleeping disorder and the fact that the things that shouldn't have been quite a big deal becomes THE big deal. Man, talk about being a total bitch here. (Oh wait... since when am I not?)
Anyway, it's been awhile since I updated anything. So I'll just talk about some of the highlights these past few days. Around April 18th, the silver ear cuffs I ordered from Etsy had finally arrived. Much to my displeasure when I wanted to take it off (because it hurts), I love wearing it. So that leaves me with my other pre-ordered item: AC III t-shirt. It's already been a month and several days, and I still haven't receive any mail yet! It's frustrating and it made me quite anxious whether I've sucessfully done my transaction correctly or not. I just don't like this icky feeling gnawing at me but the most annoying thought of all is....
My sleeping disorder. I find this very irritating. I can only sleep around 3 or 4 hours at least, but that's it. Sure I can try to go back to sleep and then some "inconvenience" decided to disrupt me from going to back to sleep because of HUNGER and BACK PAIN. This is really some fucked up shit which I could certainly not comprehend! They don't usually bug me when I'm dead tired and I would definitely sleep the whole day away but this time... REALLY? I don't even remember how the fuck it feels like to have an 8 hours sleep or more, and feeling quite content and satisfied with the amount I sleep I had. You know, maybe this is probably the fact that people keeps on telling me to fucking readjust my sleeping pattern -- I don't think it works... at all. It made me feel like a zombie! It made me look haggard and it made me look like shit. I think that's the last straw with people telling me what to do and not do. If it's only to please them, bitch please, my health is much more important than what you hoped from me. I might as well purchase sleeping pills for this. In yesterday's case, I resisted my napping course entirely. And around 6PM onwards, it made me feel drowsy. So I was hoping that I could sleep the whole night and wake up fresh in the morning, but did I? No. I found myself waking up at 9. Then I forced myself to go back to sleep, and ended up waking up at 11. I give up entirely of trying to go back to sleep and right now, it's already 4 in the morning.
Anywho, it's a short post for today. I shall go back to bed and continue reading (or if the internet allows it; if I could play Mario Kart online).
